What have i been doing

Series of pictures updating you guys on what I have been doing lately. These pictures are all taken from Instagram but well, i will add in a few more words lol

Taken @ Bicky's last night in SG. We went to have supper at Jalan Kayu together. I miss her already, wonder how is she now though. I can't post photos on facebook to update her because i don't know if she knows how to access it from there..Jojo seems sad at night especially though..

Found this meaningful quote from a magazine page. I was at Niks with LW and we waited for bloody 5 hours for our turn! Thank god DJ and Richard took us home. We ended at 1am please.

Don't you think this quote makes a damn lot of sense? Sometimes people would just choose personality over character, i cant say that i wasn't one of them.. 

My new sweater i brought from Primark! Super chio and i love it! It was around 30 SGD my most expensive apparel i bought from UK. Bought it because i haven't seen it in SG and their sweaters are super chic! I LOVE PRIMARK the stuff they sell cheaper than singapore and a lot more variety and designs! 3 storeys please. BRING ME BACK THEREEEEEEEEE

Photo taken with Jolyn during a chinese dinner. She's my cousin and she's only 12! She looks like 14 to me though.. children these days grow so fast..

My first teachers' day present! It's my first time tutoring so of course im super happy to receive one and i didn't even expected it! These 2 monsters are sometimes quite lovable. I said sometimes... lol. I teach P4 and P5 English btw. It's at Punggol and its just a 10 minute walk! Super convenient!

Bought nail polish for 2 freaking pounds at Primark so im trying them out. It actually looks better on the picture. I don't think i did a good job painting them. I love the coral green though. Always wanted to try a new colour so im super happy.

CANDY NAILS! The nail polish came in a set with 4 colours. I was deciding which to use and i just decided to heck it and use all of them. I kept staring at them though, not weird meh the colour?! Again it looked better in picture. And it's chipping off already with the bloody housework i do ALL DAY.

Taking the dogs for a walk. Because i own 3 dogs i have to go 2 trips! So it adds up into 6 trips per day? My mom brings one per trip so she has to go for 3! Luckily we take turns so we wont be so tired. Anyway when i bring the dogs down i don't bring my phone, just the keys and newspaper to clean their poo, and i was freaking lazy to take the keys cos i have no pockets. Plus the newspaper would be used up so my hand is empty, so i dont wanna hold the damn keys jiu dui liao. Good idea right.

Okay abrupt end lol. Pictures taken in UK & France shall be up when i get the pictures. I should start studying soon which means a hiatus is coming. Sob right. I know, i'll miss me too.

Liwen

My youngest sister left for UK last week.

I think it's pretty hard for the three of us, seeing as we are really very close. Disgusting close. Everytime one of us comes home late stays outside overnight we will be BORED TO DEATH. I mean 2 remains at home but it feels different. And when the late one comes home it has to compensate. With food or proper password or else can't get in LOL. DJ (大姐 for short) is pretty successful because she always comes back with food.

Why do three of us have to be home? It's because we CAN'T watch shows first without another. It's like a sister thing. No one set a rule but nobody does it.. only rarely when we really not interested in chasing the dramas. But sometimes we always end up watching together. Like one time I watched this taiwan drama alone and my 2 sisters keep making fun of it (jokingly lah) and at the end everyone just quiet down and watch it. Even after they groan when im watching the next one. It's either groaning or they distract me with something else and I ended up not watching the show lol. I remembered the last week before we left for UK both LW and I were super mega bored at night because HL wasn't home yet, was super funny because we ended up doing stupid things like arranging itunes music and painting nails.

Yes we share itunes also. Iit's on home share mode so her's sync with mine over here. UK WILL NOT BREAK US UP LOL

Sometimes HL is pardoned because she is really too tired/busy with her tuition but we will harass her when she is resting in her room. The power of food..

At home, when we talk about UK trip we always changed the word to 'Hougang'. Example if I ask LW 'Eh start packing leh don't last minute then pack' She'll be like, 'Going to hougang only need to pack meh?' and then DJ will agree. And the conversation will sort of end up with 3 of us agreeing and the packing issue is forgotten lol.

I can go on forever but as you can see, it was pretty hard.

When I was young, I love to be a leader to my sister. Show her what is this, what is that. I tend to think that she was following me around, she would share the same CCAs as me, we would go to school together, even earlier on days i had prefect duties, she would come with me. I think I was even her buddy for her first day of school (coincidence or not i cant remember, but i was a prefect so i may have pulled some strings... lol) I was also her buddy for her first conducting class thing. And I was so proud to show her off. All the primary school teachers and friends know my sister is in the same school. (I would like to go on and digress the same happened with DJ when we were at same sec school lol)

But when we start growing up, i realised that she was never following me all along. I was following her. I would find out how her day went, she would tell me about her friends, what did she do and stuff. I think I had a hard time grasping the fact that no matter how much i want to, i can't follow her to UK. Both of us (me and DJ) can't. I guess it's a very special experience that she has to go through herself.

I gues it is prolly a half regretful/sad, but also half relieved feeling for the 3 of us. Relieved to know that this experience will teach her a lot, and that she is growing up.

I was pretty sad on the way home. Teared a bit after we seperated, teared a bit in the taxi, trains, teared a bit on the plane. All I was thinking was 'Im on the train/plane now. Am i sure i want to go home? I am now further away from LW compared to XX minutes ago.' And this continued until I reached SG.

It still feels pretty weird though. But the thought of her on her way into being a better/stronger person makes me feel a lot better. And that makes me wanna be better too.

Yes im ending this post because she is whatapp-ing me now BYE

“Sisters. She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child.” - Barbara Alpert

Bicky

I have been wanting to write this but I feel that my words cannot best comprehend how I feel. I try my best though.

How do I begin? How do you muster courage to say goodbye? I am too soft hearted for all this.

I feel sad though. An empty kind of sad mixed with a tinge of warmth. Things will no longer be the same. My stuff will never be the way she used to made it. My home suddenly feels a bit more foreign as I start to rediscover stuff from which drawers..

and then the sadder part comes - you just see traces of her everywhere. I was just doing some chores when I found her blanket here, her green shirt there, her tote bag here. Everything seems the same but different.

But I do feel happy for her though. In a way I know that she will begin her own life instead of supporting ours, and that she would be very happy. She would not have made a better choice.

I will miss her. She is like my second mom evolved into an elder sister. I'll miss her cooking, watching telly together, disturbing/helping her in the kitchen, saying I love you to her randomly in which she will totally -.-, shouting while talking from different rooms, watching TFC or chasing Korean dramas together. All these little things.

The Past

Someone asked me a special question today. I guess I always knew the answer in my heart but I didn't really acknowledge it until i said it; when the weight of words just came through. But I guessed it made me feel better about things, in this perspective especially.
I guess somewhere out there, things, incidents, coincidence are always placed randomly, and it's up to us to decipher or decide what comes out from it. It could simply be a blessing in disguise.

The Past is very beautiful. But that's all there is to it, like a beautiful picture. Once created, it's eternal, in my heart. I just want to remember these happy moments. They are called The Past for a reason.

I'm very grateful for things as they are now. They may not always turn out to be the best, but next time look carefully, there is always a silver lining.

Parting Ways (All Good Things Come to An End)

“I don't know how you say good-bye to whom and what you love. I don't know a painless way to do it, don't know the words to capture a heart so full and a longing so intense.”

― Laura Wiess, How It Ends