My youngest sister left for UK last week.
I think it's pretty hard for the three of us, seeing as we are really very close. Disgusting close. Everytime one of us comes home late stays outside overnight we will be BORED TO DEATH. I mean 2 remains at home but it feels different. And when the late one comes home it has to compensate. With food or proper password or else can't get in LOL. DJ (大姐 for short) is pretty successful because she always comes back with food.
Why do three of us have to be home? It's because we CAN'T watch shows first without another. It's like a sister thing. No one set a rule but nobody does it.. only rarely when we really not interested in chasing the dramas. But sometimes we always end up watching together. Like one time I watched this taiwan drama alone and my 2 sisters keep making fun of it (jokingly lah) and at the end everyone just quiet down and watch it. Even after they groan when im watching the next one. It's either groaning or they distract me with something else and I ended up not watching the show lol. I remembered the last week before we left for UK both LW and I were super mega bored at night because HL wasn't home yet, was super funny because we ended up doing stupid things like arranging itunes music and painting nails.
Yes we share itunes also. Iit's on home share mode so her's sync with mine over here. UK WILL NOT BREAK US UP LOL
Sometimes HL is pardoned because she is really too tired/busy with her tuition but we will harass her when she is resting in her room. The power of food..
At home, when we talk about UK trip we always changed the word to 'Hougang'. Example if I ask LW 'Eh start packing leh don't last minute then pack' She'll be like, 'Going to hougang only need to pack meh?' and then DJ will agree. And the conversation will sort of end up with 3 of us agreeing and the packing issue is forgotten lol.
I can go on forever but as you can see, it was pretty hard.
When I was young, I love to be a leader to my sister. Show her what is this, what is that. I tend to think that she was following me around, she would share the same CCAs as me, we would go to school together, even earlier on days i had prefect duties, she would come with me. I think I was even her buddy for her first day of school (coincidence or not i cant remember, but i was a prefect so i may have pulled some strings... lol) I was also her buddy for her first conducting class thing. And I was so proud to show her off. All the primary school teachers and friends know my sister is in the same school. (I would like to go on and digress the same happened with DJ when we were at same sec school lol)
But when we start growing up, i realised that she was never following me all along. I was following her. I would find out how her day went, she would tell me about her friends, what did she do and stuff. I think I had a hard time grasping the fact that no matter how much i want to, i can't follow her to UK. Both of us (me and DJ) can't. I guess it's a very special experience that she has to go through herself.
I gues it is prolly a half regretful/sad, but also half relieved feeling for the 3 of us. Relieved to know that this experience will teach her a lot, and that she is growing up.
I was pretty sad on the way home. Teared a bit after we seperated, teared a bit in the taxi, trains, teared a bit on the plane. All I was thinking was 'Im on the train/plane now. Am i sure i want to go home? I am now further away from LW compared to XX minutes ago.' And this continued until I reached SG.
It still feels pretty weird though. But the thought of her on her way into being a better/stronger person makes me feel a lot better. And that makes me wanna be better too.
Yes im ending this post because she is whatapp-ing me now BYE
“Sisters. She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of
possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best,
and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight
companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She
is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even
your shrink. Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only
child.”
- Barbara Alpert
