There are times when I just feel helpless. I can't do anything, I can't do anything right either. It just irritates me when I have moments where I go completely off. I don't even know why, I don't even know what I did. It's like I feel light in the head but heavy with responsibilities. Then in the end comes a rush of guilt over something I did / didn't do / can't do. Sometimes, I'm scared of responsibilities. The price that comes with it is just too much to bear.
I know what I need to do to get over this. But it is something that has to be felt, not just heard and understood.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
Two-two
(This picture is so pixelated that no one can save me)
Anyway, its the big two-two for me today. Two hours gone so far and im enjoying this birthday already. My lovely group of friends gave me loads of surprises yesterday and sang me a birthday song while everyone took turns to finish the cake - most credits to ricky, unfortunately.
Spent my day with sunny today and he love the present he bought for me. he told me that he kept looking at it everyday ever since he bought it awww lol
Parents and sis bought me a cake and sang me a song but i forgot to make a wish. Even face-timed with LW which made my birthday even better. I am loving this!
Anyway I like this mood this birthday is giving me. Something stable and mature. I feel very settled and safe. It's slow and steady and i like it. More importantly this birthday seem to have come the right time, like its telling me that things will be alright. I think of every year's birthday wish as more of a reflection of my life. A milestone. I make it a mark to tell myself how different i was the past year, and how am i a better version of myself this year. I like it too, makes me feel nestled and happy.
More details when the rest of the two-two (woah) hours are over.
Wednesday, March 06, 2013
Project Break
Summary of my day: Woke up 11AM, finished reading the timekeeper, played usual phone games and and did my report throughout the afternoon. TV breaks at night and back to project again.
Time check: 1.38AM.
Earlier than my usual bed time but work will stop for now. Morning lesson tomorrow and busy till afternoon. Night.
Monday, March 04, 2013
Fifth Year Getaway
Spent our fifth year together @ a short staycation (i dont like this word..) via Oasia Hotel. Booked it a month ago so the rate was considered affordable, and located at such a convenient place as well!
Went to have korean food for dinner. It's my first time having korean cuisine and i really liked it. I literally tried EVERY side dish. It's really different because it's more refreshing and the taste was also really different. The meat was super good though. We ordered buffet so the meat was free flow. Could have more but i had so many dishes in front of me already!
Trying to wrap kimchi, pork belly, and putting several sauces and vegetables they provided in lettuce and eating it at one go! It's really nice! Besides all the dishes i still had a bibimbap in my left and kimchi soup on my right. Omggggggg looking at it makes me hungry
Me: OI 做么你开店没有跟我讲???
Sunny: OH YA HOR SORRY
Was walking around after dinner and spotted the foosball table. Nevertheless we played, and it was my first time lol. Needless to say i lost... 1-5(?) Bah lost count of how much times he won..
Went back and finally we exchanged presents! Made him this framed scrapbook page. Spent quite some time searching for ideas, getting the materials, and im really proud of this!
Also made him a card filled with words. Everything is made from scratch.. i drew the heart shape instead of my usual style - folding it and cut lol the black border was also coloured by me painstakingly... and also had to draw lines before writing to ensure the words isnt slanted lol
Sunny's gift to me - A secret diary as well as a novel by one of my favourite author. I really love it!!!!
Had sakae sushi the next day for brunch after checking out the next day, and ran some errands with him and also accompanied him while he had his haircut before booking in.
Overall i really enjoyed myself, and was happy to accompany him and enjoy quality time together - shopping, playing, laughing and eating. I had a really good time, especially when we weren't always able to celebrate our anniversaries every year for the past few years, and to have a full day was super awesome. I can't believe we reached our 5th year mark just like that. Time passes so fast, i feel as though we have been together only for like what.. 2 years? I can't wait to celebrate our next anniversary already ♥
Went to have korean food for dinner. It's my first time having korean cuisine and i really liked it. I literally tried EVERY side dish. It's really different because it's more refreshing and the taste was also really different. The meat was super good though. We ordered buffet so the meat was free flow. Could have more but i had so many dishes in front of me already!
Trying to wrap kimchi, pork belly, and putting several sauces and vegetables they provided in lettuce and eating it at one go! It's really nice! Besides all the dishes i still had a bibimbap in my left and kimchi soup on my right. Omggggggg looking at it makes me hungry
Me: OI 做么你开店没有跟我讲???
Sunny: OH YA HOR SORRY
Was walking around after dinner and spotted the foosball table. Nevertheless we played, and it was my first time lol. Needless to say i lost... 1-5(?) Bah lost count of how much times he won..
Went back and finally we exchanged presents! Made him this framed scrapbook page. Spent quite some time searching for ideas, getting the materials, and im really proud of this!
Had sakae sushi the next day for brunch after checking out the next day, and ran some errands with him and also accompanied him while he had his haircut before booking in.
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