This year made me realise how much people are changing and that Im actually learning to grow up as an adult
"everybody's changing and i don't feel the same"
Hmm quote by Keane.
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Anyway, hmm I'll just list down the highlights of the year.
1. Sadly, kinda lost my social touch. While I reconnected and got closer with my some of my friends and also made new friends, I kinda lost touch with some of them too. No it's not the you-hate-me-i-hate-you kind. It's the long-time-no-see-drift-away kind. Meh. Oh well.
2. Learnt a lifelong lesson from my father about the purpose of.. everything. Can't really pen them down into words i'll be like 20 thousand pages.
3. Got closer with my family. I mean along with the arguments of course. But heh heh
4. Learnt driving. I was really glad my sis made me to go for license FASTER even though i was reluctant at first. Im really not spontaneous to change zzz
5. Guess what? In the slighest way possible i sorta learnt to stand up for myself.
6. Learnt to be less preoccupied by school. Maybe by doing this GPA's gonna suck. But I just think there's a lot more than studying and dont really wanna be such a slave anymore. It doesn't mean im giving up, im just taking a step back and try to see things from a bigger picture. It's the efficiency that counts, not how much you try to mug and nothing gets in. I guess i finally found a reason why i can't perform well even though i work so hard.
7. Independence. To do things myself, and learnt to get what i want instead of fearing that i'll be lonely and shit. I don't even mind eating lunch or going lectures alone anymore. It's always good to have time to yourself even though I would think or feel a tad lonely. (No sympathy here hor! dont offer to pei me after reading this ah! its ok :) )
8. Selfish. I mean im not gonna be a selfish dumbass. But I think that it's good to be selfish for yourself once in a while, doing things you wanna do instead of accomodating others. Quite tiring ah. I can say no if i want to ya?
9. I also realised that I ought to be healthier. Issues here and there just made me realise and eh im eating veggies okay! ok at least i feel healthier. don't really like sweets and stuff so yeah. okay this point is a bit pointless.
10. Calm & Keep cool. Im still learning, mind you. Even though Im so not panicking at all when people say i am kan chiong! it's just the voice and tone and loudness! But i'll admit i still am.
11. Love sunny! ok pointless again but still.. =D
Anyway, I like how the last day of 2009 is well spent. Im not really those clubbing type of person, and don't really wanna join some countdown party and become sticky and smelly and squeezing with a lot of people. (even though i wanna try for experience like next time) I had lunch with my sunny at boonkeng, those wet market type heh heh but i liked it, went back my house to just slack and made him 'hate' milk tea WAHAHAH! also watched channel u 妻子的诱惑 with family, and some supper/snacks at pasar malam before coming back again. & here i am, blogging. Peaceful and simple. :)
Being 18 was great, and I hope 19 would be even better :)
PS: saving it as a draft until sunny goes home heh heh so he wont see cos damn embarrassing if he reads it while im like beside him!
PS:S damn unphotogenic la how do you even make yourself look good in photos? look like crap.. i had this photo where i was practically GLOWING WITH HAPPINESS but i was too yucky looking
