Two-two

So.. clearing my backlogs and starting with my birthday celebration, which was held around one month ago. Sorry for the late update, just came back  and prior to that i was dealing with my projects and my presentation.

Anyway, my closest friends came around and planned a birthday surprise for me, with the help of Sunny. It was really nice, and cliche as it sounds, REALLY didn't expect anything out of it because we already planned something (semi-passed?) for candy before hand, so i didn't think they would pull the same trick twice. But i guess that's why it worked, and i am super grateful for this bunch of friends who i can not only laugh, shout and play around, and also fight with lol. Not to mention my bf sunny who always never fail to celebrate with me. At the end of the day we all had super great fun.

I met sunny beforehand and supposedly met with candy cherelle at Novena for 2D1N korean BBQ, but all the girls came showing up  (with sunny, he supposedly 'left' before meeting them) and surprised the shit out of me! Anyway the food was really good, though it was really hot and oily too! Everyone dressed so well - i am in black shirt and shorts - ultimate bbq attire. Damn. 

I have no idea why this photo appears so blur but heck it.

Went to punggol riverside to chill thereafter, and the remaining guys appeared - eric, benson, ricky + xinyi and they also gave me a cake surprise. yeah we were noisy lol

 

And then they gave me this pair of earrings which i have been wearing ever since~

 Photo taken as i am blogging right now.. (soz for messy table, give this girl a chance la)

 Thank you guys for staying with me every year and also Cherelle and Candy for planning this (and being the most tiring) Love you all! :)

Flying off

Flying off to another adventure in a few hours time! I'll be back next Saturday morning. Spent my past few weeks doing my work, planning the trip and Bobby fell sick which was unexpected and made me even busier. Luckily, he's recuperating very well and although he can't walk around much, (Dr. don't allow) he's super active!

I think this trip came in time? I needed a holiday and I am excited to meet my LW too!

Today was good. I poured my heart out and I wasn't the only one. I think both of us would feel... slightly better I suppose.

Anyway on a total bad note (BOO!!), Sunny is away for his crescendo which totally sucks because I can't see him for 3 weeks? More so until I come back. Can't wait~

ok I'm heading to sleep. Shall update soon if I can. Night all.

Blanking out

There are times when I just feel helpless. I can't do anything, I can't do anything right either. It just irritates me when I have moments where I go completely off. I don't even know why, I don't even know what I did. It's like I feel light in the head but heavy with responsibilities. Then in the end comes a rush of guilt over something I did / didn't do / can't do. Sometimes, I'm scared of responsibilities. The price that comes with it is just too much to bear.

I know what I need to do to get over this. But it is something that has to be felt, not just heard and understood.

Two-two

(This picture is so pixelated that no one can save me)

Anyway, its the big two-two for me today. Two hours gone so far and im enjoying this birthday already. My lovely group of friends gave me loads of surprises yesterday and sang me a birthday song while everyone took turns to finish the cake - most credits to ricky, unfortunately.

Spent my day with sunny today and he love the present he bought for me. he told me that he kept looking at it everyday ever since he bought it awww lol

Parents and sis bought me a cake and sang me a song but i forgot to make a wish. Even face-timed with LW which made my birthday even better. I am loving this!

Anyway I like this mood this birthday is giving me. Something stable and mature. I feel very settled and safe. It's slow and steady and i like it.  More importantly this birthday seem to have come the right time, like its telling me that things will be alright. I think of every year's birthday wish as more of a reflection of my life. A milestone. I make it a mark to tell myself how different i was the past year, and how am i a better version of myself this year. I like it too, makes me feel nestled and happy.

More details when the rest of the two-two (woah) hours are over.

Project Break

Summary of my day: Woke up 11AM, finished reading the timekeeper, played usual phone games and and did my report throughout the afternoon. TV breaks at night and back to project again. 

 Time check: 1.38AM.

Earlier than my usual bed time but work will stop for now. Morning lesson tomorrow and busy till afternoon. Night.

Fifth Year Getaway

Spent our fifth year together @ a short staycation (i dont like this word..) via Oasia Hotel. Booked it a month ago so the rate was considered affordable, and located at such a convenient place as well!

Went to have korean food for dinner. It's my first time having korean cuisine and i really liked it. I literally tried EVERY side dish. It's really different because it's more refreshing and the taste was also really different. The meat was super good though. We ordered buffet so the meat was free flow. Could have more but i had so many dishes in front of me already!

Trying to wrap kimchi, pork belly, and putting several sauces and vegetables they provided in lettuce and eating it at one go! It's really nice! Besides all the dishes i still had a bibimbap in my left and kimchi soup on my right. Omggggggg looking at it makes me hungry

Me: OI 做么你开店没有跟我讲???
Sunny: OH YA HOR SORRY

Was walking around after dinner and spotted the foosball table. Nevertheless we played, and it was my first time lol. Needless to say i lost... 1-5(?) Bah lost count of how much times he won..

Went back and finally we exchanged presents! Made him this framed scrapbook page. Spent quite some time searching for ideas, getting the materials, and im really proud of this!

Also made him a card filled with words. Everything is made from scratch.. i drew the heart shape instead of my usual style -  folding it and cut lol the black border was also coloured by me painstakingly... and also had to draw lines before writing to ensure the words isnt slanted lol

 Sunny's gift to me - A secret diary as well as a novel by one of my favourite author. I really love it!!!!

Had sakae sushi the next day for brunch after checking out the next day, and ran some errands with him and also accompanied him while he had his haircut before booking in.

Overall i really enjoyed myself, and was happy to accompany him and enjoy quality time together - shopping, playing, laughing and eating. I had a really good time, especially when we weren't always able to celebrate our anniversaries every year for the past few years, and to have a full day was super awesome. I can't believe we reached our 5th year mark just like that. Time passes so fast, i feel as though we have been together only for like what.. 2 years? I can't wait to celebrate our next anniversary already ♥

Stay - Rihanna

All along it was a fever
A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air I said show me something
He said, if you dare come a little closer

Round and around and around and around we go
Ohhh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay

It's not much of a life you're living
It's not just something you take, it's given
Round and around and around and around we go
Ohhh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay

Ohhh the reason I hold on
Ohhh cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one but i'm the only one who needed saving
Cause when you never see the lights it's hard to know which one of us is caving

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay, stay
I want you to stay, ohhh

Forgotten pictures + quote

'You closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too — even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.'

 (Tuesdays with Morrie, Mitch Albom)

Myth - Albert Einstein

Came across this  rumour regarding Mr. Albert Einstein. This had been refuted and argued that its a myth, a story. Many versions of it has been published as well, but the crux of it remains the same. Since it cannot be verified im gonna take it as that. These are some excerpts from this particular version that I really liked. The original story consists of an argument between a professor and a student (presumably Einstein in this case).

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Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't.

 (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat.But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.


Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light. But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?