The first day is always the hardest

(A random snippet of my (unclear) new hair which makes me look ten times older than i already am, thanks. it already looks better in the photo, let me warn you)

I'm starting my first day of work tomorrow, and the reason why im still up late is because im hoping that the night stretches as long as it could be, because im really dreading monday.

The first day, is always the hardest.

Especially when you're alone this time. I think im just gonna take it with a pinch of salt (hopefully), and welcome any obstacles with an open heart. I mean, thats all that is left to do right? You cant change the fact, but you can change the way you think about it.

Anyway it's just a 2 month plus contract anyway, so i'll just regard it as another internship. The workplace is quite far, but i guess much better in a way? I'll have to walk a lot though.

I hope i'll never get to work, work is boring. Im a piece of lazy shit and all i wanna do is stay at home and roll around! but my conscious is just telling me to get a move on, and start doing something with my life. Afterall, its time = money isnt it? You exchange time for money anyway.

i guess its harder to push yourself when compared to being pushed by something else.

Alright, I shall gonna go prepare for tomorrow. I guess even though i hope tomorrow never comes, it's still gonna happen, whether you get 3 hours or 8 hours of sleep, or even if you welcome or dread this change.

Random Snippets of Genting~

Here are some photos taken from the trip to Genting!~















All in all, it was fun! although the places are the same but i really love the cold weather there, and there was a MEGA sale off many branded items like french connection, guess and other branded stuff. i mean MEGA, like 70%-90% of or something. it was like stepping into a dreamland! Plus did some shopping there and well, most of the stuff we bought was cheaper compared to SG!

i played at the arcade, and also played with a new game that involve flipping tables and i entered the all time top 10 high SCORE MWAHAHAHA

hmm, i also drove all the way there, with my butt sore for a 3-4 hour ride and also clocking in like 300km? that's accomplishment and satisfaction righttttt there~

I also went for the motionmaster ride and also stayed out of the hotel, chilling at starbucks till like 4am before heading back. but i didnt get to see cheryl :(

anyway, even though it was fun, i think it would take some time before i returned to genting? prolly cos places to go is really quite limited~

okay im gonna head to bed, went to 51 with candy and cherelle, and even though the alcohol's wearing off, but i still feel kinda tired. tonight's gonna be a good night~

Changed my spectacles!

Hi ya'll! As you can see, I changed my spectacles already! my myopia didnt worsen so phew! however my lens were badly scratched because i kept wiping it with my shirt which is deffo a big no-no! i guess i learn my lesson...

i spent the day watching cougar town, and also trying to blog about my Dec trip to Genting by photoshopping my photos, but it was taking too long i guess i'll blog a short post here first. also went down with my sissies + 2 dogs for a stroll downstairs to catch a glimpse at the Super Moon, and it was gorgeous!

k and now im bored. Running Man episode would be released tomorrow and i can't wait to watch, it's so funny and addictive!

actually i've been doing nothing during the hols except watching tv, surfing the net, reading, playing an awful lot of mahjong, and meeting up some of my friends! was glad to meet up and help out rebacca in her music school thingy, and i hope all is well! met up june and weishan yesterday for dinner @ NEX's pizza hut, and it was quite a good catch up session, not to mention attending the Celebration of Learning in which i saw many of my poly mates and had loads of fun with noisy Nadirah(s) beside me!

i know i know, im getting a job soon. yeah im so darn lazy but i know i have too! btw june made me a birthday card and it was so pretty and im so happy to have a friend like her! she totally made my day and i was surprised! thanksssss :D





wah so chio~

anyway im just gonna go continue with my photoshop and play a bit of mahjong! can't wait to meet cherelle and candy tomorrow as well as rebacca and the rest after cheryl returns from aussie :D woot fun!

New Beginnings?

I seem to have an issue with March, nothing seems to go the way that it's supposed to be. I feel like I'm losing my touch, all the things that I used or seem to be at least good at, seems so increasingly difficult for me now. Am I at the brink of my breaking point? Holidays are here and I'm supposed to be at least enjoying myself? But i spent most of my days feeling so heavy, with all the ongoing stuff occurring each day... is this what you call being lost and stuck?

I seemed extra burdened by this holiday, like I'm supposed to do something but i feel so restless, so tired and too demoralized to do anything. I see all my friends being surrounded by doing what they love with so much passion, but i feel like a loser sitting at home and doing nothing, mourning over regrets and occupied with my thoughts that just seem to go nowhere. Before i know it, night has fallen and everything starts all over again, like a rewind tape.

how is that i wanna do everything yet nothing at the same time?

ever since this happened, I just found it difficult to talk to you. i hope it's just a phase because i hate it. i get irritated when i talk to you and it pains me because i don't like it at all, but i hate the 'interrogation' at the same time, as if im responsible for everything that goes wrong and im supposed to answer to you.

so amidst all this mess, im supposed to cross my 20 year old age line with this huge pile of excess baggage? how am i even supposed to feel glad about it? i feel like being 20 means approaching at a crossroad. what you do next is seriously gonna determine how the rest of your life will turn out. everyone seems to have a destination or a plan in mind, but i have nothing.

Regrets.. everyone has a few, but i just don't want mine to haunt me.



PS: ARGH I HOPE IT'S PMS IT BETTER BE

Endure~

Hi I'm taking a 30 minute break from all that mugging, so that explains why I'm here. Okay I'm not really mugging very intensely so yeah.. in fact I think I'm actually quite slack?

Bah I'm gonna spare you guys of all the study talk even I get sick of ranting about it. Bottom line is that this semester is the most important and I should get kicking and be more productive instead!

Anyway I know that once exams are over I'm gonna be damn 无法无天! but yeah considering getting a part-time job though, but i guess i'll think about it after exams are over~

okay the sky is getting dark and i reckon it's gonna rain, in one hand it'll be quite conducive for studying? keeping my fingers crossed!

BTW BTW OH OH OH the taiwanese show 爱 is finishing like YAY! it's been airing for YEARS and finally its about time they end that show! even im getting impatient of waiting for the ending already lor!

k im really bored and nothing to say. this is getting awkward~

hmm the weather's nice..... *drifts off*

CNY 2011

Here are some photos when my friends came down to my house for CNY! I'm so happy as most of them are able to attend! LALALA~ and my mom was so happy by their attendance!


















poor weishan fell on her way here and ended up scraping both her knees! had to do some clean up for her but everything worked out fine! also got to see other old friends like yvonne! I last saw her 6 months ago, excluding the coincidental meeting at popeyes punngol! not to mention that my dogs are very happy as always, ESPECIALLY happy who like to sit on our poker cards when playing blackjack or big2!!!!!!

thanks for coming sunny candy yvonne weishan jim cheeming weizhong junming christina queenie tedric & gf! hope i didnt leave out anybody~

as you can see im much more free now so able to blog! but i cant say for the next few weeks because exams are comingggggggggggggggggg! :(

anyway its time for uni admissions... which means its literally time to grow up and move on to another phase of life. hate thinking what i'll do next and its so hard to accept that we are moving one step closer to working life. i just cant imagine holding so much responsibility when i become a young adult. i don't see myself like that, being a working professional ew that just sounds wrong.

but nevertheless, i guess such is life. so i'll just have to hold on tight and see how it goes :)

PS: Oooooh bte happy valentines' day everybody!!!!!! me and sunny are just gonna go eat roti prata for dinner YUM!!!!!

Waiting for weekends

This friday would officially mark the end to ALL my projects this semester, and I can't say how relieved i am right now! I've been so tired and lethargic lately that I keep dozing on the bus to and fro from school for like 3 days straight! I know i keep repeating but its just because i normally dont do it at all! It's like LW's talent, not mine.

anw the first 3 days of CNY just passed~ i hope everyone enjoyed their CNY though. maybe as we are growing up, the novelty of CNY just wears off year by year because its not so exciting any more when you were young? I remembered that snacks and soft drinks were a big deal in my age, house visiting and buying new clothes were so exciting! But now shopping feels like a chore, especially when it came in the wrong time!

however, despite what was mentioned earlier, i managed to have a better time compared to last year! maybe because we went for more house visits, and even had a chance to dine with some of my cousins at Long Beach! Didnt really get to do that last year which was quite a bummer. i found out that some of my relatives used to be those extras you see on tv, and also a pair of twins! 2 70 year old twins thats damn cute ok!

furthermore, a group of my friends came to my house for CNY! i was quite glad that most people turned up tho, it was quite last minute and i initially wanted a small gathering, but since its CNY, the more the merrier! i wanna thank my friends for being so spontaneous~

okay abrupt end gtg dad wanna use zzz nights im using macbook air btw so user friendly and chio i wanna keep it

Tax Competition + NAPFA

Finished my work for the day so I'm here to blog! The tutorial i was doing was damn tedious man, 4 hours for one bloody question which is totally sian half. anyway i finished my test today and it's a bit worrying because i might not really... do well? Arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway I went to NTU for a tax competition last weekend, it was bloody far - all the way at Jurong! Luckily my dad fetched in the morning and I had a hard time navigating my way there cos it's so damn big and I had to stop and ask around for directions. Saw Benedict and some of the other colleagues there which was surprising! found out that they were actually one of the main sponsors of this event and they are here to give a talk regarding future prospects of working in KPMG! yeah and IRAS came too. I think it's like the 3rd time i heard their talk! Oh and i also saw some of the ex-interns from NYP as well as Edwin - Edward and Rebacca's friend! so happy to see so many familiar faces! :D

anyway since we completely came for fun we totally just ended up not entering finals and scooting off to explore many of the places and take photos!



Team mates - Wan Jun and Chiwfoong!



IRAS gave out sticky sweets but dammit i never take!



PengXiang's team managed to get into the top 4 for final round! Kudos for being the only polytechnic :)





Group photossssss



Wan Jun and me!



Me and Eunice! walao i look like a freaking stick lah i need to get FATTTTTTTT T.T

Feeling damn sian when it was time to go home - travelling time damn far ok! luckily i had shu hua for company and we talked throughout the way home. took me 2 hours plus to reach home i was damn lethargic :/






MOVING ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN...





I had my NAPFA test last thursday! everyone around me contemplated not going to mug for the paper but in the end some ended up spontaneously coming! I was set on coming ever since they told us; how can i miss a chance to exercise! exercising is really one of my favourite thing to do because you can just play and have fun! i especially like NAPFA because i never got the discipline to really run and it helps me to see what i can actually achieve!

i went running on a sunday as a form of practice but turned out i was sooo rusty i ended up getting a headache and a terrible muscle ache which lasted all week! and yeah i thought jogging would perk me up but i ended up getting more tired and took a long nap!

by thursday my body was still aching so i wore jeans to school + put yoko yoko as an attempt to sooth my muscles before the test! learnt that the reason why my body ached so much was that i didn't do warm up + stretching exercises which is really important to help u reduce your body pains. to think i use to disregard it so much HAHA cannot look down on stretching and warm up hor!

anw it was really fun, i think i did better in the 5 stations compared to sec 4 which is damn surprising but my 2.4 totally got worse which was expected! luckily i passed my NAPFA heh heh it was great fun! i had the help from my sissies and friends who made sure i got a lot of stretching done, and actually helped me quite a lot! i also learnt a lot of tips to help perform better in NAPFA! bad thing about NAPFA was that it was so darn draggy we reported at 4.45pm and we ended at around 10pm like WTF. somemore there was a bimbo from another course in my group BUAY TAHAN!

We also had tags are a form of identity when you run so they can mark your rounds. Dammit they told me to shout my number when i run past them! like how am i suppose to do that when im half dead and all out of breath! i just totally stared at them when i ran pass and gestured to them my number tag lor.

Photos after the run, while waiting for our running timingssss. My face looks darn red NO photoshop okay!



Nadirah and me! heh she is so funny, always make me laugh in school or lame together lor!



Chiwfoong and me. she damn power at stretching cos she is from dance! so everytime she about to stretch she look like she going for dancing lesson so graceful one lor!





One funny thing about the 3 of us is that our number tags are consecutively numbered, and we finished crossing one after another too, skipping like only one number only. it was fun, and would be better if there wasn't any test the next day (today lor).

Okay gotta go sleep! I'm so busy so many things to do until.... maybe next wednesday. MAYBE

Good ol'll January

It's January again! I always feel as though we are running in circles with each passing year, picking up from where we left off!
Currently blasting songs from Coldplay, it's really a good listen especially in the night.

January so far has been quite busy, and I can only foresee myself continuing this way till start of feb? Though tired and drained everyday, this hectic schedules also makes me feel quite satisfied that I'm maxing out my 24 hours with each passing day!

The bad thing about it tho, I feel as if I've missed out a lot.

I missed out a lot of fun and opportunities to hang out with friends! Wanted to meet them but it's so hard and I feel like I'm missing out on a part of their life, especially when I feel that they might need me to you know, confide in or just catch up!

Had to painfully reject invites from Cherelle Candy Rebacca and even Sunny :(((((( Only met up with my friends once so far... at Aglio Cafe?

Luckily I have Nadirah and June with me in school!!!!!!! at least makes me feel better + good classmates.

&&& I HATE SUNNY FYP ITS EATING SO MUCH OF OUR TIME THAT WE CAN SPEND TOGETHER, which is really very little fyi!
so it's sad. haven't seen him since like 1st Jan. Luckily I managed to dig out some time tomorrow!

Anw I have some resolutions yet to be made; but I'll keep them to myself!

So anw, I have NAPFA next week, meaning jogging on a Sunday morning, as well as squeezing in time for CNY shopping + projects. Tax competition on Saturday means I must wake up at 6am to go JU-BLOODY-RONG. and also a test next week and another one after that and so many crap in between. might not sound that busy but I AM!

now I just hope to HAVE MORE TIME

Quick wordy post

It's 4.35am, and my mind is already thinking about sleeping and yes, i'm still here to blog! I wanted to do an overview of my 2010 year when i thought about it a month ago, but i think it really isn't going to happen, because im as busy as hell! i'll still prolly try to make it happen cos i want to take it happen!

it's kinda ironic when i say im busy but im always tweeting about all the shows im watching! oh well need to curb my habit of being a couch potato.

anyway yes it's the last day of 2010, and i intend to savour every minute of it! i guess this means waking up earlier~ bad thing is that this means im hitting the big 2 next year! AHHHH i feel time is really too fast. i don't even feel like im growing up, but reality has spoken otherwise.

okay abrupt end of rant i am still down with flu and my head feels heavy. is it me or is singapore becoming colder?

oh yeah anyway genting was fun.. and cold! wanted to go outdoor theme park and abandoned the plan in the end wakakaka

yes official end of rant enjoy your last day guys!